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MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCES IN LIFE;-[1];-

         [A];-Grace of Lord;-

My husband retired as a Principle scientific officer in the Defence department in the central government office, in year 1994.He used to get transefer  from one place to another,every once in four years. But i couldn’t accompany him as we didn’t want to disrurb children’s education,as we had planned earlier, i,e, myself to stay at Bangalore,with my in-laws along with my kids.So he had to go alone  in specified places where he had been transefered,

It might be the year, 1985 he was in Jabbalpur, Madhya pradesh,where he had to live alone without anybody’s assistance.The house he was living was in the outskirts of the city.and there was no telephone connection in that area. He used to call on us once in a week,[every sunday].that too he had to go to the city which was about two kilometres from his place, by bus,.and used to chat with us for nearly one hour, enquiring about everybody,and return to his place That had become regular for us, and i used to wait ,very anxiuosely .for the next comming week.Like this days passed on. One sunday i was waiting for his call,but couldnot get, even  till late night. I started worried,i couldnot be in touch with him ,as we could not ring to his office, as per rules.Whole night i couldnot sleep.I waited for the nextday,for his call. i didn’nt know what might be the cause.I waited for the next week,IIn the afternoon, i could receive his phone call. He told that he was down with fever,and nobody could attend to him.He had to get the medicines from his office assistants , from city Medical stores.as there were  no medical facilitities in that area.He had to apply for leave and stay at home.Luckily the neighbour, who was a Bengali, took care of him while he was sick.

Imagine my fate! Whole night i couldn’t sleep, worrying about him,Next morning, it might be arround 3’0 clock.In my dream actually, you believe it or not , i was sitting on one of the benches in front of a temple,crying.Suddenly, from inside  i saw my Mother-in-law, comming out of the temple. She was wearing a Golden studded Banaras saree, smiling at me, She asked me why i am crying. In the dream also, i could tell the reason.She told why i should worry,and asked me to lit  ghee lamp in the house, in front of God,and pray, wholeheartedlymThat would sort out all the problems.Then she dissappeared .I got thrilled and immmediately wokeup. I told my mother-inlaw about my dream. She told that it was none other than Kashi Vishalakshi Devi, who had appeared in my dream  to console me.

When i got up in the next morning, i was in a very fresh mood.After going through all my  ablusions , i took bath and decided to lit ghee lamp at the temple itself for twelve daysand putting twelve rounds, before Lord Sri Venkateswara.I went to the temple and lit the lamps,and prayed to the Lord by chanting slokas of Lord,, to solve the problem.This i did by the grace of Lord,by .putting twelve  rounds in the premises. You believe it or not,on the twelfth day, after finishing my twelfth round ,and was about to go home,i saw my maid servant, who was working, came running  towards me,holding an envelope in her hand,said that she had received that, ten minutes back,and wanted to hand over the same. To my utter surprise, i could see that it was a telegramme from my husband.I opened that  immediately,and went through,I was overjoyed after seeing the telegramme, The matter was  that he got transeferred from ,Jabbalpur, and arriving Bangalore within a week!My joy knew no bounds.Then and there itself i paid my  whole hearted thankfulness to the Lord  for, He had heard my prayer and fullfilled my desire and returned home  with gratitude towards lord. Then after one week, my husband ,who got transefer permanently, from Jabbalpur, returned to Bangalore and joined   CENTRAL GOVT.OFFICE ;-DEFENCE DEPT. [A L I S D A] WHICH IS NEAR Jalahalli, to the north of Bangalore.

What i want to convey, from this incident,, which i experienced Lord’s kindness,  is that, we need not do penance like sages to get His blessings. we must put our heart, mind and soul together while praying.That means we have to surrender to LORD”S LOTUS FEET, completely,For HE wants pure love, that’s all.

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INFLUENCE OF GREAT LEADERS[PART.[2]

I still remember ,that sometimes  he would give examples of great devotees ,like Hanuman,who is considered as a Lord Himself  later,.and , Vibhishana, brother of  Ravana, [king of Lanka,attracted by the beauty of Sitadevi,wife of Sri Ramachandra,and  stole her,  in the absence of Him,,and took her to his kingdom , to marry her, forcebly.  Sri Ramachandra fought with him with the help of , thousands of monkeys,whose king was Sugreeva and his minister Hanuman.and killed him and another brother Kumbhakarna,and freed his wife Sita devi,and returned to his  kingdom, Ayodya, and crowned as the king and ruled his  kingdom with the help of his three brothers.His kingdom became famous as ”Rama raajya”,through out his term.

Many stories are told by various spiritual leaders on Lord Hanuman. It is a great belief that Lord Hanman still lives in a cave in  one of the mountains of Himalaya., He is called as CHIRANJEEVI”[ that means, those who will never have death, at all.Why he is called as ”chiranjeevi, Hanuman, ”, there is a story behind this.

  After returning from Lanka, along with Sitadevi , his brother, Laxmana, and all the monkeys,who helped Him to fight with Ravana,thus killing him,and all the demons, and attaining the throne, Lord Rama, gave presents to all of the monkeys,, Each one of them accepted the presents with  great happiness and  satisfaction,and returned to their respective places. But Lord Hanuman, stayed there. He didn’t want to leave His Lord even for a moment. Pleasing with his devotion,, Lord Rama, looked at His wife Sita,and asked her to present something to Hanuman. As per her husband’s wish Sita devi presented a pearl necklace to him.But to her utter surprise, Hanuman took that necklace ,separated each pearls, and started breaking them.one by one. , When he was asked , the reason for his action, Hanuman told that he wanted to find his lord’s name in those pearls. But he couldn’t find in any of them,So he decided to break those pearl set. That much was his devotion towards Lord. He wanted to see Lord’s name in anything , anywhere, and everywhere.Lord descended from the throne, and hugged him with great love and affection.

  In the end When Lord Rama decided to return to His abode;-Sri Vaikuntam,going deep into Sarayu river,, along with all his brothers,, he asked Hanuman  who never wanted to leave Him, ,whether he wanted to come to Sri vaikuntam, Hanuman immedietely asked Rama, whether he could be allowed to chant Ramanaama, always,or to hear Lord’s glories., there, the certainly he would go along with Him. Rama replied that he could not be allowed to do any of those things, as in srivaikuntam, there is nothing But, ”Ananda”or Happiness everywhere.For that Hanuman replied, that , then he wanted to stay in this world as he always wanted to chant Rama naama, and to hear Ramayana stories. always. Rama was pleased with his reply and gave a boon, before returning to his abode, that there onwards HANUMAN WOULD BE CALLED AS lORD HANUMAN,AND  HE WOULD LIVE LONG, TILL THE END OF KALIYUGA. That is why He is called as chiranjeevi.It is still believed that Lord hanuman will be there, where,everRama yana stories, will be heard and Rama bhajans are    chanted.He would bepresent  there in an invisible form  always.

UNDERSTANDING THE SPIRITUAL CONCEPT.

First  of all , we have to understand, the  truth of finding God’s presence  in this world.The CONCEPT OF GOD IS ”LOVE”God will present  any where and every  where the  ”Love” exists ,that too, selfless ,pure[Satwick nature] or Sathwa guna[Indian language],and with great .devotion Many people  have shown us the paths to reach this Higher state of Energy. to follow for our well being.To achieve this, first we have to decide to seek God’s blessings  to show His presence.and to achieve  this   purpose,;many, many years back,  saints and sages, went on  doing penance,under the trees,[  with greatest faith and devotion] in forests  in places like Himalayan mountains, and also in many holy places.leaving everything.only to see God and they could find God by doing so.and were successfull in their mission.
These people who experienced this, have shown the paths , by means of writing Hymns, for the sake of the true devotees,and singing His Glories forgetting themselves,and thus spreading BHAKTHI [DEVOTION] movement. But why they should do? Because, they had foreseen  the sufferings of people because of the misdeeds they do to satisfy themselves  sand their kith and kin thinking nothing but worldly pleasures,which they think are permanent. They have to satisfy the needs of their beloved people, by not only providing food and shelter, but also try to please them by giving lots of presents and gift ,they like..In this process they had  to choose wrong paths , like stealing,and indulging in highway robbery, without thinking of  the consequences,And in the end ,when  they   realise ,they  would start an ascetic life, leaving all the worldly pleasures and  change their lives to become great  devotees of God.
Example  of one of the great devotees is Sage Valmiki, who wrote great epic of Indian culture ;-Ramayana.Before becomming  a sage he was   a great robber, who used to rob the  ornaments and belongings  from the people who were all passing, through  the forest, where he lived with his family That was only sourse of income.To satisfy their needs, he used to rob people by threatening them,  by showing a knife to them. Lord Brahma, who is the creator of all beings,decided to change that man  ,So he called Sage Narada,,who travelled all over the world by singing Lord Sri Mannarayana,’s  Hymns,and,,by chanting the names of Lord and thus spreading  glory of Lord.Sage Narada, was born to Lord Brahma, through His  power of Mind.[Brahma manasa putra] where as Lord Brahma Himself was born through an  UMBILICAL CORD OF LORD VISHNU;-SRIMAN NARAYANA IN A LOTUS FLOWER], ATTACHED TO IT,] Thus Sage  Narada was called as the grandson of Maha Vishnu,This sage  came  to meet The robber  who was waiting in the forest  for a pray, Purposely he was excibiting a great diomand necklace in  his neck. The thief was very much attracted by that jewellery, as he wanted to please his wife, by snatching that jewellery from Narada,to be gifted to his wife. But Sage Narada said that he would give it freely, but on one condion that he should  go to his house, and ask all his people whether they share some part of  the sins he was doing for pleasing them, and providing all the needs and thus satisfying them,For that , he gladly agreed, because, he was sure that they would easily accept to share all the sins along with him,He returned to his house, and asked his parents first, To his utter surprise, they replied that how they would be responsible for the sins he had done., and continued  that it was a son’s duty to protect his parents in their old age till their last breath. Dissappointed by their reply, he went and asked his wife ,whether she liked to share his sins,She replied, that how could share the sins committed by him,It was a husand’s duty to provide a wife’s needs.by some method or the other. she never asked him to steal or to kill a person to get  whatever she liked.only he had to bear the fruits of whatever he had done. With great dissappointment  with their replies he came back to Sage Narad, and surrendered before him and asked him to show a way to wash off all his sins  ,he was doing till then without thinking about the consequences. Sage Narada, who was waiting for that opportunity, showed a nearby tree and asked him what was that?That was the turning point in that man’s life. He said ”MARA[KANNADA]” Sage Narada, asked him to meditate that word repeatedly to be chanted as Raama , concentrating on that word only, without paying attention to any type of weather  conditions,and without thinking of food and thirst,or sleep. The man gladly agreed and the very moment started chanting. He didn’t bother about anything He went on the word Raama,  again and again in his mind, without  asking  sage Narada .He began to chant the Lord Raama’s name , repeatedly Sage Narada, returned to Sri Vaikuntam ,the abode of the Lord.Many years passed A great ant hill began to form covering His whole body. ,He was not even aware of that. He was chanting THE WORD , continuously He never bothered about outside world.At last  a great light began to glow  on the ant hill,and suddenly , it began to fall.  and by his penance a great sage appeared , He later named as ”Sage Valmiki.” Which means a man born out of ant hill. [Valmika;- sanskrit meaning.]

The Beginning;-Influence of Great Leaders;-

    1. Since my child hood, i was very much  interested in  reading about the stories of  The great leaders  like Budha, Ramakrishna parama hamsa,Swami Vivekananda sage  Veda vyasa, who wrote Maha Bharatha  and Bhagavatha with the help of Lord Vinayakaeldest son of Lord Shiva and mOther Goddess parvathy,], Sage  Valmiki who wrote Srimadh Ramayana[Ramayana and Maha Bharatha are the great epics of Hinduism.] Srimadh Bhagavatha  is about Lord Srikrishna,Complete form[Poorna Avathara],of Lord Maha Vishnu ,who took   TEN  ”Avatharas”or ”Forms,”in His previous births  to protect His  ”Devotees” who  were suffering in the hands of the  demons Like Hiranyaaksha,Hiranya kashipu;and to [In this The Lord took two forms;- [a];-Varaha Avathara[Varaha means Pig] to kill Hiranyaaksha, who stole the Mother Earth , below the whole Universe.Lord took the form of a Big Pig and fought with the demon and freed Mother Earth

    2. .The principles of Lord Rama ;[1];-Truthfulness,[2] His obedience to his father[3];,treating all His mothers;Queen -Kausalya[Own mother], Sumithra queen mother of his twin brothers Laxmana and Shatrugna,and Queen kaikeyi , mother of his another brother Bharatha;] equal to His mother.Great love and  affection to his brothers.[4] Devotion to His teachers and elders;[5];Vowed to be a faithful to his wedded wife Sitawhose hands he won  by breaking   breaking the Bow which was given to  king Janaka’s[Princees Sitadevi’s father] ancestors,.gifted by Lord shiva . His  love towards His people and showing courage in fighting with Demons to safeguardthe interests of  his  the people of His kingdom.and protecting them.; I was very influenced by Lord Rama’s qualities which were embedded in my mind , since my childhood.

    3. In SrimadhBhagavatha [There are 12 chapters in this great   epic;Lord Srikrishna’s story can be read in the 10th chapter-.When i was ten years old girl there was anold man of my  grand father’s age who dedicated  all his life to read   about  Lord srikrishna’s life history, ,and chanting HIS prayers and slokas. Always he used  spend his leisure  times in  telling the stories about the Lord to  all the children [including me] of that  town,which is  my native place by name Laxmipura [Kuppam in Andhra pradesh] .particularly in the afterternoon .In stead of playing we used to assemble in a big hall ,where he used to  make us to sit arround him and would start  telling  the stories of Lord Srikrishna.we would  forget ourselves ,as we were involved in his way of telling  he would  explain some times by actions also., all the childhood and playfull activities of the Lord. Sometimes he would  teach Slokas and sometimes Bhajans, with true devotion.  He made us  chanting those slokas repeatedly  ,and he  would  ask us to repeat whatever he taught in the previous day. Thus we all had  learnt   all the slokas from him. which we never forget in our life time.Apart from that,.he would to tell many stories of Lord, in his own way, which we were al listening forgetting ourselves,and deeply involving. in them.l very much liked to hear again and again So this made my mind  always thinking about  Lord Sri krishna.In the end of that day he used to tell,that whatever we prepare or do anything we should pray first and offer Him because He is the supreme Lord ;by saying [Let God be kind enough to have this;-[SRIKRISHNA ARPANA NAMASTHU][continued]

BEGINNING OF SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCES IN MY LIFE.

First of all i want to write  that i was  blessed  with God loving parents,who  had sown the seeds of Spiritual Love when i was young , by telling the stories from the great epics ;-Ramayana and Bhagavatha,which made me attracted MY LOVE  towards  Lord Rama,[Ramayana] and Lord SRikrishna[Srimad bhaghavatha. .My mother was the first teacher[GURU IN Kannada]  who taught me the true values of life  by telling Lord Srirama’s beautiful charecters,which had embedded in my heart and mind ,which in turn, made me to devote  a part of my life to chant prayers and offer  food to the Lord.My mother wanted me and all my brothers and sister[ Three younger brothers and a sister]to follow the principles of Lord Rama.Next She wanted to me to have devotion to Lord Sri Krishna,to reach even higher goal;For that i used to have an Idol of Lord SriKrishna in my pooja room,and daily i used to chant prayers of Lord Sri Rama and SriKrishna, before doing my usual routine work.This i continued till my marriage .

My next teacher was my another mother;-My Mother-in-law,you believe it or not, she showed  the same love and affection particularly towards me as i am having  the same name os her lost daughter,who expired   her childhood at the age  in between 8 and 9. under  a tragic circumstance . She was telling that she used to call her daughter as ”paddu”affectionately. Gradually she continued showing her affection in many ways,by asking me to chant, ”Laxmi Sahasranaamam” ”Sri sthuthi’ written by famous poet ‘Nigamantha Maha Desikan  a famous Sanskrit poet like and a true Devotee of Lord Sri Venkateswara.”and other  sthotrams[Prayers],because, she used to say ,after her daughter’s death  she changed her daily ways of life and gradually made up her mind turning  towards Lord.But this helped her  a lot in future, she used to tell. My Father -in-law was a Physics professor working in a reputed college.In those days the salary he used to get was very nominal,and he used to find it very difficult to run the family of six children[my brothers-in-law are five in numbers and a sister-in-law, who are all living and are leading very comfortable life.She used to tell me after she started chanting ”sristhuthi” daily, whole life started changing for the better.  as i  was very closed to her by helping her in  every thing  which made me comming more closer to her. Whenever i was upset she used to pacify me and advise me to chant prayers wholeheartedly. Actually, our elders used to say that GURUS ”come twice in one’s life. That means;- when a man or woman desides to change life  spiritually, one Teacher comes to show a path .of  the journey to reach goal;and same teacher or Guru in another form ” would come to take HIm/her to reach and  fullfill the goal. Same thing happened in my life alaso.It was my luck to have Two Mothers in my spiritual life.But my bad  luck, both of them are no more. They had lead full life till last few months. I am still following the footsteps shown by my both MOTHERS.

Now i  , as a Mother taught the same thing to my children to follow,the footsteps shown by my elders.and thry are very much benifittedby this.